So I have a few emotions and apologies to share with you but before I do I just want to remind you of the upcoming book signing! Come visit me Saturday, November 9th between 10am-Noon to chat, have your book signed, snag some cool swag, and check out some other interesting authors that will be hosted by the North Carolina Mooresville Public Library!
But now for my confessions…
This month has been a tough one for me writing-wise. I had every good intention of having Wings of Ruin finished and only needing a final round of edits in September to make sure it’s ready for release in October. Unfortunately, as I’ve mentioned before, my writing progress for this book has been going…very…slowly…and it makes me feel so disappointed in myself! But what I couldn’t sort out was why things were moving at such a snail’s pace when I love the story I’m writing so much.
A large part of it is because my life has gotten much busier and that cuts into my writing time and my energy. It’s amazing how draining things can be to one’s mental energy especially. By the time I get through my other work I’d rather take a nap or watch Netflix than gear myself up to dive back into Oneiroi and work out another few thousand words. Ugh! Regardless, I have a small but wonderfully loyal readership and I owe it to you all to keep my promises. I might not have a publishing contract looming over me demanding a word count but I do have you all and you’re just as important, even more so to me. I hate that I sound like I’m making a slew of lame excuses for myself and I’m feeling itchy and impatient because I really love Cassandra’s story and I want to just sit down and finish it all in one go! (If only that were possible haha).
I’m not quite sure what the solution is but I’ve been trying to put writing first, tackling it first thing in the morning before I become drained from my other tasks and I’ve found myself re-inspired. I have been writing and working on Wings of Ruin every day and I am determined, determined to have it published as soon as possible (whether that means late 2019 or early 2020 I don’t quite know yet though). I am going to not only finish this book but continue on to my next project and the next no matter what else gets in the way. I am going to keep publishing books for each one of you who have supported me and my stories. I am going to keep publishing books with my gaze set upon the horizon of what could be. And I am going to keep publishing books until it ceases to bring me joy. It is far too easy to get wrapped up in this wordly mindset of making good money, having lots of followers, and living life demanding a dream. All this has brought me is anxiety and misery.
Cassandra’s story is about a girl cast as a villain and it’s been intriguing and entertaining to write at every turn. It has been an escape from the worries the world tries to bury me under and it’s given each day a goal, a purpose. I’m sure I’ll inevitably relapse into another hole of negative thinking, of mental exhaustion, and my writing will falter with it, but I hope that you will stick with me and be there to encourage me to keep going, to keep writing, to keep cheering on my characters and begging me for more. It’s difficult to offer something no one wants, but it takes only the smallest team of cheerleaders to make a difference.
Thank you to every single one of you for reading my books, for leaving reviews on Amazon and Goodreads, for posting bookstagrams, for tweeting, for telling your friends, and for telling me. You might feel insignificant when you do such things but it makes all the difference to me. Thank you. ♥
And just to give you a little teasing reminder about the main character you will walk beside in Wings of Ruin…
Kingdom of Ash
(Throne of Glass #7)
by Sarah J. Maas
This series is amazing!! And yes I know I’m almost a year late to reading the series finale but at last I snagged a copy and am devouring it! There are a lot of misconceptions and opinions on the internet about Maas’ books but all I can say is that so far every book of hers that I’ve read I haven’t been able to put down so to me as an author her writing is #goals.
(click the book cover to read the description)
by Billie Eilish
This song will not leave my head. I can’t even definitively say if I love it or not, all I know is when it comes on I’m dancing and in the zone haha.